It gets hot up on stage. On stage at Moody's, next to the sweaty, original jazz musicians.
It gets hot under the blaring red lights that make everything that isn't under their beam look distant and daunting.
It gets hot when people stare at your kid body then nod at your unexpected talent.
It gets hot when you think that you might have played the wrong note, and even hotter when you think people might have heard you.
It gets hot when you see a snap of a flash and know that you are captured in some stranger's camera.
It gets hot when you high-five Adam or Shaina or Dublin or Brandon.
LZ
10.23.11
2:38PM
Three predictions:
1. I thought it would have been easy to write for 10min a day.
2. I thought that the subject would come right to the front of my head instantly.
3. I thought that my writing would be perfect right when it was printed on the paper.
Ohhhhhh, but no.
Three realities:
1. I probably thought about what to write for 30 min and then my pencil scratched for 10 (and most times a little more than 10, but still).
2. I would sit and sigh for what seemed like forever until an idea would pop into my clueless head.
3. And trust me, I did some editing--not on all my pieces, but definitely on this one.
This week, I am satisfied and happy that I found the "just right" inspiration each day.
LZ
i loved it (even though I did not read it) (Mississippi rocks)(ruff)
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Eleanore, thank you for your poem. It's so powerful. I love the repetition. I love that you explored a new topic. I love that "HOT" means so many different things and affects you in so many different ways. It's really good. I think you could go further with this, too. Of course I would say that. I would want you to expand on (be more specific about)these words: talent, stage. Your detail, grounded in such succulent reality, is so good. Saying the musicians' names. Wow. Thank you, also, for telling us all about your week. It's important to recognize not all your writing "worked" and was easy to do. Thank you for continuing to strive for complete, raw, brutal honesty in your writing. Me
ReplyDeleteEleanore, had the experience. pretty hot. embarrassing. hot with the lights. had the experience.
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I think that has all happened to us before (maybe not on the stage at Moody's) but you explained the best ;)
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